Getting Cranky

Okay, no entry yesterday and tonight I am cranky. So here's the scoop. I made my order for additional drugs to get us through the weekend. The protocal is to order them from pharmacy with a confidencial nam "dba ...." in Massachusetts, they overnight them Fed Ex for next day delivery, which is a Saturday. I can't imagine how much that cost, as I didn't pay it directly, it is rolled up in the price of the drugs. Which were $4,000 for a 10 day supply, which thankfully with our insurance ran us only about $400. The order was made and business was closed on the east coast. I got a call to change my dose for Menapur, normally a morning drug, I was instructed to take it last night. No problem until I realized later, that we only had one dose left...so what would I take this morning, since I knew Fed Ex may not be here until noon, which was 4 hours later then my normal dose. I couldn't shake the concern, and while at the acupuncturist, he could see my worry. He said my eggs were much like my personality, anxious, perfectionist and over achieving. I think it was a compliment (at least I hope so), but it still didn't solve my dilemma about the medication. When I ran it by Bill last night, he just said to go to the doctor (as I do everyday for ultrasound and bloodwork) today and it will all work out. Of course it did! They gave me a dose of the drug, to get me by. Fed Ex arrived as promised (Sorry Tom Hanks, but there is no sequel).

So the crankiness I mentioned. My left ovary, the one with something like 7 -9 follicles is very heavy, it is has dropped a few inches. It feels like a gas bubble that won't move. When I bend over, say to put on a shoe, I can feel the pressure, which is probably never a feeling that makes one relax. Bill and I went to a movie tonight 4:00pm, hours afterlunch. I felt the need to unbutton, my jeans, kind of like those who stuff themselves at a holiday dinner. My appetite lately is more to stop the gurgling in my stomach or get rid of the lightheartedness from low blood sugar, instead fo my normal salavary excitement I experience with the anticpation of the first bite and enjoying my food. Again, the foreign fluids in my body are to blame, so I will move forward with anticipation of the gift(s) that will come of this slight discomfort.